I have long been aware that my writing is always deeper and more thought provoking when I am upset... in fact... my best writing has come from the darkest times in my life.
Back nearly a year ago I came up with an idea for a book. I've continued to develop the idea, solely from the simple phrase, "misery loves company".
Those of you that know me well know that I have been an avid reader for many years. In fact, it's a rare moment that finds me without a book or two going at the same time.
The problem I'm facing is that I'm happy... or at least content. The idea I have is a good one, but mainly centers on some very dark times for me... so I have two choices. A.) Forget the book idea and continue to search for something to do that will give my life direction and purpose... or... B.) I can choose to remember all those hard times and pull from those memories and emotions that I have worked very hard to get through or bury.
I really think that this book could help some people not feel so alone... a dangerous emotion. Key word being help...
I wrote a lot during those times so returning to those memories would not be a hard task... just a dangerous one. I am not quite sure I want to put myself and those closest to me through that... and I'm not sure I can write the book without those emotions... so the real challenge is in finding balance. Balance between past and present, happy vs. sad, and sanity vs. insanity.
I feel the need to create and think I would be a fool to ignore this opportunity even if nothing comes from it... even if the only thing I glean from it is proving to myself that I can indeed be something more than a blogger, a glorified keeper of journals.
