I really think I hate my job. I wish I could put my finger on what exactly I hate about it... mostly I think that it's because I panic every time I get to work, or go on my lunch break, or take a second to return a phone call, or sneeze.
I really used to enjoy what I did, and now I'm afraid to even speak about what I do for fear of any chance that my employer may read this.
No employee should be made to feel guilty over a doctor appointment (especially when you disclose health issues BEFORE they hire you). I've only been there for three months and I am exhausted. I have not asked for any time off, and am only requesting an hour for an appointment that my new insurance (from work) requires.
I really wish I knew what I was meant to do. Hey God... baseball bat of bluntness needed here STAT!
I enjoy aspects of my job... when I can develop relationships with my customers and help them get their financial lives back on track, it's extremely rewarding. I even enjoy the angry people because they always leave my office happier then when they entered. I may not sell something to everyone that walks through my door, but that's because I may not think they need something other than someone to listen!
I've never been the type to draw blood for blue ribbons. I am not a sales person, I am an adviser. If I think something is a good fit, I go for it, and if they say no, I may ask why, but I never push. My customers come back to me, time and time again. I value loyalty over sales points any day... I've found that if I take the time to develop the relationship, the points and commission come on their own. My business is an annuitized business, rushing it will NOT create anything positive.
I am tired of having The Sword of Damocles hanging over my head... only fitting that it is suspended by a single horse hair.
